Horrible girlfriend...August 23rd, 2008

I am such a horrible fucking girlfriend. I shouldn't even be alive for what I've done to hurt Yadiel and make him believe that I'm cheating on him when I'm not. You want to know what I've done? I've walked away from my computer still signed onto messanger when he's offline. And when I do he usually signs on and IM's me and I NEVER get back to my computer on time to save the conversation.

There. That's what I've done and I feel horrible about it. I want to kill myself because I want us to work but I keep doing this over and over again. You know what else I've done? When me and him got back together one of the promises I made him is that we'd talk on the phoen four times a month. Do you know how many times we've spoken on the phone since we got back together? One. And that was last month. I made a sugar-coated candy promise that I've been horrible at keeping. I so badly want to change it from sugar-coated candy promise that I can't keep to one that I can. But for some reason... I can't. I don't know why. But I will tell you this....
I love him. Plain and simple. Remember a few weeks ago when I said that the reason I had decided to not move to England when I was 18 was 95% mostly due to funding my move there? I lied to myself because I didn't want to get ahead. He is 95% of the reason I don't want to move to England when I'm 18. There's already so much water and land distancing us that I don't want to add hours onto that too. Fuck, I'll admit it now, when I think about marrige and having the four kids I want, he is the person I imagine down at the other end of the isle impatiently waiting for the moment when he gets to kiss me as his wife. Dancing with him anytime I fucking please...and yes, making love to him is also on the top of that list of my imaginings. I want me and him to last these three daunting years we have left. Why? For the reasons above and then some. God, if there was only something I could say or do that would make him see that and make him not believe that I'm cheating on him when I'm not and never will.

That's my rant.

Love,
Amy

10th grade Bleeds....August 17th, 2008

NEW LAYOUT! I was stumped for a while on what to do for a new layout. Then I remembered what Christine keeps telling me to do every time I ask you all what you think I should do for the next layout. A book cover. So I used the picture from the Chronicals of Vladimir Tod: Thenth Grade Bleeds. Which is the third book in that series that comes out next July. And the second one comes out in paperback next March! I started the series off with the first one in paperback. I have this weird OCD thing that if I start a series in paperback or hardback, then I have to have the rest of the series in the same format. So unfortunantly I won't be reading Tenth Grade Bleeds until 2010. :( But that doesn't mean that I can't use the cover in a layout does it? Hopefully I change it before someone important regarding the cover sees....O.o Ha! I hope not though...

Love,
Amy

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY TD!...August 15th, 2008

This isn't much of an update. But as you all know, today is TD's second birthday! Yay! They grow up so fast. Haha. Expect a new layout tomorrow, since this was only meant to be temporary for TDs Birthday. :D

Love,
Amy

Glasses....August 13th, 2008

I'll explain the title of the update in a bit. Because I know a certain someone who goes by the name of Ashley Morgon is sitting impatiently on the very edge of her computer chair waiting to read this update about my first day of my sophmore year.

So I'll start out with my schedule first. :D

1st hour: Spanish II - Henry
2nd hour: Oral Communications - Sahr (S + AIR)
3rd hour: Algebra 1A - Kelly
4th hour part A: Advisory 10 - Ritzel
4th hour part B: Lunch
5th hour: Physical/Earth Science - Knef
6th hour 1st quarter: Personal Finance - Bivens
6th hour 2nd quarter: DRIVERS ED - Exton
7th hour: Food & Nutrition 1 - Smith

Mhm, you read that right: I'M TAKING DRIVERS ED NEXT QUARTER! For those who don't understand, our semesters are split up into two sections that we call "Quarters". They're basically 9 week intraverals of the entire semster. First semster is made up of 1st and 2nd quarter and second semster is made up of 3ed and 4th quarter. So Personal Finance and Drivers Ed are only 9 weeks long. :D

Another thing that might have you confused is the splitting of the lunch and advisory. There is quite a few students in attendence at O'Fallon, so there's three lunch periods that are split up into two sections. A and B. If your scheduel says 3A, you go to advisory first. Advisory is a class where you do homework, watch this thing we have called The Panther Beat which is our anouncments for the day, and then we watch a teen news program that's shown nationaly called Channel One News. I don't know if any of you have seen or heard of it, but we watch that after TPB. :D So, anyway, if your schedule says 3A (which 3ed hour IS a lunch hour at 10 AM) you go to advisory first and lunch second, if it says 3B you go to lunch first, then advisory.

Anyway, now that I've bored you all to tears and made Ashley even more impatient (sorry 'bout that), I'll give you what you really came here for. Pretty much...it was boring. :P Mr. Henry is pretty funny/interesting and has made me a bit scared because he said Spanish II was going to kick our butts. But, we got our textbooks and work books today and we actualy start learning tomorrow! Shocker I know. :P I'll be honest, I was kind of nervous about Oral Communications because we do actualy have to give several speeches infront of the class, but now that thought seems a bit silly to me. Just wait until you actualy have to give your first speech Amy! Sorry, that will be the last time I refer to myself in third person...in this blog anyway. My Algebra teacher though, Mrs. Kelly, IS NINE-MONTHS PREGNANT AND DUE NEXT WEDENSDAY! I sat there thinking "What on earth are you doing here then?" But hey, she'll have a bouncing baby boy in her arms next week and be gone on maternity leave for six weeks. :D She isn't the only pregnant teacher in the school. As I told Alona, when one gets pregnant, THEY ALL DO - even the wifes of the male teachers. There are not a lot of old teacher at my school. At all. But, she actually started a lesson today, so yes...I had math homework. But that's okay, you'll see why in a few sentences. So, then I had advisory which pretty much was boring because they don't start airing Panther Beat and Channel One until next week, so not much to keep me entertained there. Then I had lunch. I started off alone. Then this girl named Quin - whom I learned had moved here from Alaska- a fellow sophmore came and sat across from me and said "You look like an interesting lunch person." So, I sat with Quin and a friend of mine that I might have mentioned in the past before I graduated 8th grade came and sat with me, his name is Brandon. So I have two lunch buddies now. Quin and Brandon. Yay! After lunch came my least favourite subject of the year. Physical/Earth Science. Now, you all know I suck at science. So it's easy to see why this one already marks itself as my least favourite. Nothing exiting or eventful here. But I did also get vocab homework which I finished in class. :D If you couldn't guess, we didn't have time to work on our math homework. :( But, after that boring mass of...mass, O.o, came Personal Finance. I quite like the teacher. She's pretty nice. And apparently she falls out of chairs too! Can't wait to see that one. :D Then what might weasle itself into the top spot was: Foods & Nutrition. Or as most of you know it as, home ec. The set up of the room is not at all as I pictured it! It's actualy quite nicer than I did. There's these crevics of counter tops and cabinents in a semi- circle formation with a circular table in it, the chairs are cramped together. There's a stove and some little crevic areas had microwaves. :D Mine didn't. :( And that, ladies and maybe gentelmen concluds my first day of sophmore year. Want a record of tomorrow. Lemme know!

Now, onto explaining the title of this update. As you all know I wear glasses. Well, a couple of weeks ago my dad allowed my mom to take me up to Americas Best for an eye exame and to get some new glass. Well, the eye exame ended up being free, but they were having a sale: 2 pairs for $69.99. Okay, in my family, that's a goddamn good deal. :P So I gots two new spiffy pairs of glasses and I have some pictures of me with them on (not at the same time of course) that I took earlier to show you all. So here they are:

One two Three four Five Six

And just for good measurment here's a picture of my coppy of The Chronicals of Vladimir Tod: Eight Grade Bites signed by the author Heather Brewer: YAY!

Love,
Amy

Birthday layout!...August 9th, 2008

Hello, hello! Lookie what I made! A birthday layout! If no one pays attention to the calender, then you wouldn't know what I'm talking about, but for those of you who do you would have noticed that next week Friday, the 15th, is Temporary Distraction's second birthday! I can't believe my baby is going to be two next week! Ha! Anyway, I'll hopefully have some good sized updates for you either later on today or next week, so look out for those! Only 4 days until start school!

Love,
Amy